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For Charlie the Unicorn from Starfish
I found you on here once--don't know if you know that. It was right sexy bbw seeking man Waynesville MO after we agreed this would be a good place to vent about things you could never say out loud. So I guess it's my turn. I know you will find me here and when you do please don't ever let on that you did. The truth is I've been confused about my feelings for you for awhile. I don't want to pretend anymore or try to reason myself out of it. I like you, inexplicably. For a long time I didn't know what it meant to be in a loving, committed relationship with someone and then suddenly have feelings for somebody else. Meeting you forced me to question everything in my tiny universe. I finally realized and accepted that it's ok to have a crush on someone, what matters is what I do with those feelings. I am in love with him, and like you said I am very happy. I would never, ever hurt him or betray his trust. That's why I'm not willing to take this any further than writing these words and then letting it go. When I told you that your crush would go away I was saying it as much to myself as to you. Time will make this easier. Maybe it already has for you. I will be gone soon. You will meet somebody, and when you do I will probably be jealous in some deep, dark place that I won't want to acknowledge. But you're not mine, and I'm not yours. You deserve to be happy. All I can ask for is your friendship for as long as this isn't weird. You are lovable, Mr. Young Curmudgeon. Go be loved (and hugged!).
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